Running because I can!

O My Gosh!  I am not sure what happened to me. I think I was on the edge of a serious mental break down this last couple of months. 

I can list a million reasons why I have stopped running/ working out but they are just excuses I am sure.  I looked at myself yesterday and the day before that and that, and asked myself what the heck I was doing and today I decided I better change it. 

I am amazed at how fast all my hard work went right down the drain. I thought the whole time I was running (Really running) I was not seeing any diffrence and now if I could just go back to what I looked like and felt like a couple of months ago I would.  It was a big diffrence.

I made a good choice to get back on my treadmill today. I was sad to see how much slower I was. My lungs did not like what I was doing and I could feel my butt bouncing. (It acually did not do that before I stopped running.

I ran 2.05 miles in what I normally run 3 which was in 30.42 minutes.  Seriously I will be stiff tomorrow that is the sad part.  I am going to start eatting better again as well. I hope this time is a go and I can keep it up.  This month is going to be just about as busy as the last two but I hope not as stressful.

I will find out if I am going to be closer to adopting my baby boy and if that goes bad I hope to at least feel better about myself so I can hold it together.  On a good note we have a date to adopt our other boy. Finally it has taken 4 months to get the paper work all back together.        

I was a little stiff yesterday so I did not get on the treadmill, but I was fine today.

I decided my goal was 4 miles no matter how long it took me because that was my average before i gave up.  I was on the treadmill for 67 minutes but I did it.  I did have to take a few phone calls while I was on and I can't hear and walk fast at the same time for some reason. 

I thought I would take advantage of the defrosted road and try running out side.  I have no idea how you all run out side as much as you do and don't slip and fall.  My lab came with me and fell 3 times. I am sure I would have if I would not have been watching my steps so closely.  It was all clear and then all the sudden patches of ice. 

My husband was suprised I cam home dry and not complaining of falling.

My lungs did not like the cold air when I was breathing hard.  I made it home in 23 minutes.  

I have the worst church time now that the new year has rolled around. 2:30, so i decided I would get in some  treadmill time. I think that if I skip days I may get out of prctice again.

I have some small shin splints today so I walked .25 then ran .25.  I just had a goal of 40 minutes today. I read that 30 minutes maintains weight and 40 and more will help you lose weight. I thought I would push it to 40. I was done at 30 today but I have not slept good the last two night and I am so tired.

Thanks for your suport guys!    

I had a crazy busy day yesterday and never made it on the treadmill, so I tried to make up for it today.

I ran my first two miles in 23 minutes and I stayed on the treadmill for a total of 39 minutes. not close to my best time but I felt good about it.

I am going to try to start back at the gym tomorrow.  (I hope)

I finally made it back to the gym today. I have not been sleeping well because my baby gets so sick at night so i was proud I even made it with the little sleep I got last night.

Wednesday After that huge snow storm I went out and shoveled my drive way and side walk into one big pile then about an hour later me and my 4 year olds went out and I shoveled half our frount yard into the pile. I made a snow cave big enough for them all to fit in. I think I was out there for a total of 2.5 hours.

Yesterday I could not move, my back was so stiff. Still hurts today but I think it is the muscles from shoveling and throwing it high on top of the pile.   

Because my back is so stiff I did the acr trainer for 30 minutes 1.60 miles and then Did a couple of easy weights and a few cruches (Not many because my back) Then I got on the bike for 35 minutes and went 6.25 miles.   

I had some extra energy tonight so i decided to get on the treadmill. I acually had my best run since being back. I ran my first mile in 10.24 min's and then my second at the 23. something min, and then I walked slow for a couple of minutes to cool down. I feel good!    

I did 4 miles on the elliptical today in 40 minutes. I felt like I pushed my self seeing as I wanted off at 30 minutes.  I went and worked my abs and then the day care came and got me because my baby was poopy. By the time I had him cleaned up my time was up so I had to cut it short.    

I ran my three miles in 33 minutes today and then I walked .50 on a high incline for a few minutes. I can't help but kick myself when I think how much farther I would  be if I would have kept with it the last few months.  

I felt good other than my fingers feeling numb and my throat burning.  I was right next to the double doors in the cinema room and I could feel the wind blowing in.   O and the bottom of my feet were on fire when I got off. They felt really tender. (Not sure if that is normal) I am beginning to think maybe I do need new shoes I have not even had these one for a year yet.  

I worked my abs just a little bit because they hurt from yesterday. I am not sure if  the abs are something that can be worked everyday. I have heard both ways. My abs need worked on more than any other part of me. 

I did two arm and back machines. I have this dying erge to hold on to the treadmill when I am running and I think if I strengthen my upper body more maybe it will get easier.

I had 30 minutes left so I got on the bike and rode 5.05 miles.  

My body seemed so tired today. I also ate a small salad about an hour and a half before the gym and I kept getting a bad side ache. I ran my first 2 miles with some walking at first.  I tried running after walking for a bit and my shoulder kept cramping up.    I was watching a good movie so I decided just to walk at an incline and fast pace. I did a total of 65 minutes. 

As I was streching the day care came and got me once again and said my baby was poopy. I changed him and had about 15 minutes left so I ran out and did some abs before I had to get my kids out of the day care.

I have had the hardest time getting to the gym lately so I do my best to get on my treadmill.   I kept saying I was going today and then one of my kids would distract me some how. I finally got on in the middle of cooking dinner. I set the dinner timer for 10 minutes and so my goal was to run  a mile in 10 minutes so I could stop and put the food on plates. So I ran it in 10.25. after I got my kids dinner to them I got back on and ran another mile in 9.45. Then I had to run to the store for my husband. Well I did walk .25 miles to cool down before I got off. Not the best workout or my first choice but I got it done. Yey,    

So I went to the dentist today right before the gym.  I was ot thinking when I planned my day.  I had a filling in my very back bottom tooth. I was numb form my ear to the middle of my lip. It is 5.5 hours later and I am still slightly numb. 

I thought running was a bad idea seeing as I could not feel my face and I was afraid I might bite my toung off.  So I did the arc trainer for 30 minutes but I put it on resistance of 5 which goes up to 30 pound weights so my legs were tired. I spilt water down my mouth every time I drank any thing, so i went to the abs and weights. I worked my abs really hard and then I did some leg weights. 

I think next time I go to the dentist I am going to go for the no numbing. I have only ever had a couple of fillings and I don't remember it being that bad.    

My goal today was to get 3 miles done as fast as possiable because my baby will sleep for a couple of hours some days and 20 minutes others. My husband is out of town all week long and the gym can't get all my kids in at the day care at a good time today.

So I ran my three miles in 31.30. I was going to walk until Tallon woke up from his nap but I paused the treadmill to get the twins train out and when I got back on it would not start.

Just my luck! 

I have not slept well the last two nights and I think it caught up to me today. I got on the treadmill at the gym and relized I had put on my old running shoes. I thought I would give them a try anyways (they have no padding left in them.)  My legs were so tired I just wanted to go home.

I went and got on the elliptical and it was a mental talk the whole time just to stay on it. I made it to 20 minutes but it was a slow pace.  I did 1.65 miles on that.   I felt really weak when I got off so I sat on the floor and streched for a minute, then went and worked my abs.  I did one leg machine and two arm weight machines and then I got on the bike and went 5.36 miles in 30 minutes.  

I am glad I made it through the work out with out just stopping and comming home like my body so wanted to.

I ran/walked for 28 minutes I kept getting the worst side ache. I kept thinking if I could get my side ache under control my legs felt good, I could have ran much longer.

I worked my abs and did 2 leg weight machines.

Then I got on the bike for 30 minutes.

I did shovel snow again last night for about an hour and a half. I am shoveling for two at this point my neighbor is an older lady and her son normally shovels, but not lately.

VENTING! So I made a huge batch of jerky all day yesterday. I cut up all the meat (It takes forever if you want to get all the fat off) I marinated it until about 5pm then I put it on the dryer. I stayed up late to take the first batch off then I got up early to take the second batch off. (It was so good)

Well today when I got home the dog had got out of her kennel/crate. Yep she ate it all. I could kill her. She comes in lately because of the cold but has learned to head but the door on her kennel. She turns on the water facet out side and leaves it running. This is acually her second indoor kennel because she figured out how to open her other one. I wish she would put her brain to better use. I will never get another dog after this one.