Running because I can!

I Have a son!  We finally adopted our little boy Friday. What a hard chapter in my life this was but what a great beginning!  One more to go and I can breath normally again.

So after a crazy busy week. Snow shoveling, bowling, adoptions birthdays, my little job.

I thought I would have a horriable day at the gym today but I suprised myself. I finished my three miles in 33 minutes. I worked my abs and then rode the bike for 30 minutes.   I felt good!

I felt much better running this time around. i ran my first two miles in 21 minutes three in 34:00. And then I walked really slow for a while. 

I finally got my blood work back from my second doctors opinion, because I am always so tired and I get sick so much. I had mono a year and a half ago. My blood is still showing that I still activly have it. The doctor said my antibodies to it or something is really high which indicates my body is fighting like crazy. He is going to try b-12 shots to get my energy and imune system back up.   

I am hoping that I will be able to break through this wall I keep hitting.  

Other than feeling very tired I had a good little jog on the tredmill. I ran my first two miles without stopping finishing in 22:00 and then I finished three at 34 minutes and then I walked for about 5 minutes.

I worked my abs and then I got on the bike and rode for 30 minutes. (This is when I read)

I have to share something funny.

I was rubbing lotion on my little 4 year old boy (He has really dry skin) He said "Mom you are giving me a sun burn" I said how am I giving you a sun burn and he said "Because I am your son and you are burning me" Now everytime he see's the lotion he says please don't give me a sun burn again. 

I will never look at sun burns the same way again.

He also asked me when we first told him he was our son if that meant I was his moon.

Pretty cute kid.

I am feeling so much better today. I got on the treadmill and my breathing came easier than it has in a long time, and my legs did not feel like jello. I ran my first two miles in 22 minutes and then I walked ran the last part. I think I could have ran longer but I did not want to push it on the first day I realy felt good.

I worked my abs and then I rode the bike for 30 minutes.

Usually I come home from the gym and I feel like napping, not today. I feel pretty good.   

I woke up today at 3:30 and I could not fall back to sleep.  At some point around 4am by 4 yr old boy came in and said he had a bad dream about his beding and could not sleep in his room. So he got in bed with me and once he stopped moving around and fell asleep he began to snor. Not some little cute snor a loud man snor.

It was about 5:30 when I decided i may as well get up and get the gym out of the way.  I made it to the gymall dizzy and almost sleep walking/driving.  I drug my self onto the treadmill and was suprised as I got little bursts of energy. I ran off and on for the entire 4.30.  

Then I worked my sore abs. Lifted a couple of arms weights and then I rode the bike for 30 minutes. 

As I was walking out of the gym I made a mental note that I should do that more offten and that I felt really good.  And then I walked my sweaty body out in the freezing air.    

I don't know about everyone else but I could not beleive the mess of snow when I woke up.  I shoveled I path for my daughter to get on the bus and then I started on my drive way. About an hour later I went out to finish the job, and saw my neighbor was very  stuck, so me and two other women pushed her out.  I decided I should shovel her drive way so she did not get stuck on her way back in.  Then I felt bad for our neighbor, she is single and older so I shoveled her drive way. Then I finished mine.

By the time I was done I could not bend over one more time, but I was not watching the clock, and when I got back in the house it was to late to cancle my gym appointment(daycare). So I rushed around got ready and left. Much to my amazment I ran 3 miles in 31 minutes.  (one of my best times)  when I got off the treadmill I was thinking k I'm done but decided to do my abs. I didn't get very far with that because they are so sore.(but it felt good to lay on the bench) I am reading a really good book right now so I decided the only way I would get any of it read today was if I got on the bike. So I put half the weight on that I normally do and took off. 30 minutes later I was shoked to see how far I had gone. I was at the peak suspense in my book. When I got off the bike my legs were so jello. I have done alot of streching since I have been home.   

I woke up stiffer than a board today and some how still made it to the gym. I thought i will run 1 mile and then get on the arc trainer or something really easy, but some how I ran the whole three miles in 32 or 33 minutes. it really didn't matter I was just glad I surpassed my goal of 1 mile.

I did a light ab workout (still sore from the shoveling). Then I got on the bike and went for 23 minutes. I ran out of time at the day care. I must have laid on the ab bench to long.

Great news!!!!!! I am officially in the 130's now for weight.  Lets just hope it keeps going down.

And o break a mothers heart! I took my twins in for there kintergarden shots today. They were so excited to be there, the poor little things were shocked when those needles started stabbing them in the legs.  It is hard to watch your babies grow up! 

I do have to say tonight has been the easiest night putting them to bed since the day they were born. They are both so stiff they don't want to move.  (that will be me tomorrow)    

All I can say is yeh for tomorrow I get to rest. (well for the most part)

I went to one of my clients homes today and just being there for one hour drains me. This girl I am helping right now has a court date of March 7th and I am her last playig card, so I have until then to teach her all I can reform everything I can about her, or she losses her kids.  (Forever)  I can see she really loves them and she really wants to change. It is sad to watch. I don't normally go in at the end, I go in and have four months or more to work with them, and then they have a few months to prove themselves after I step out that they can maintain.  

My babies bio great grandparents came to get him today and that is giving me a nervous brake down. They are safe people but I don't know if they are smart enough to keep bio mom away.  6 more days and I will have more say and control over the situation. 

So with all this crazy stuff going on I thought I better get on the treadmill so I don't sart eatting.  I decided that I was just going to walk/ run for 60 minutes. It was an easy workout. My legs are still a bit stiff  so it was slow going.         

I had my running clothes on and was just getting ready to get on the treadmill when my sister called me. We rarely see each other and she wanted me to come over and play rock band with her. (playstation game) and since the kids were here and driving me crazy, I thought why not.

I played the guitar for about 2.5 hours straight. So I guess the extent of my exercise was I was standing and my fingers and forearms were working. We had alot of fun. It was a good day.  I did not get home until 7:30 and I had to feed my kids and get them to bed. It was 9:00 by the time that happened and I decided with my sleeping problems running right before bed was not going to help. (That and my husband is gone for the week).     

Today my goal was to run 40 minutes without walking. I ran the first 3 miles in 32 minutes and finished the last .80 in 8 minutes.  I thought I should just go to 4 miles but my hip really started to hurt and still dose. It feels like it needs to pop but if I rotate it and try to pop it it feels like it will pop right out of socket.

I worked my abs. Then I rode the bike for 30 minutes.    

With my husband beingout of town and all my kids getting sick I am having a hard time getting in my workouts. Last night I resorted to my big exercise ball. My baby would not let me out of his sight and would not sleep unless I was right there next to him.

My husband got home today! I didn't make it to the gym until 7:30 pm but I made it. I was so tired. I really didn't want to go but so far this week has been sucky so I mad myself go.  

My goal at one point was just to make the first mile and after the second mile I could only go one more half. My legs felt really tight afterwards. I got on the bike and my goal was 4 miles which I finished in 22 minutes.    

I ran 4 miles without walking in 42 minutes today.  The first mile always seems like the hardest.   Then I walked .25 .   I feel good although very tired I can tell it is time for my shot again.

I worked my abs (Which so far no results in that area.)  Then I did a leg machine for my inner thighs.

I stretched longer today after my run so I only had 22 minutes left so I got on the bike and finished out my time going 4.20 miles. i was so sweaty I felt dumb walking over to get my jacket on.  For some reason it felt like people were staring at me. (Little self esteem issue)

I had a crazy busy day but managed to work in a run and a bike ride. My goal on the treadmill was to run 40 minutes and that is what I did. I walked the last .16 in after the 40 minutes ended.

Then I took my baby to his well child check that was a nightmare and I am glad it is over.  I cooked dinner and then rode 3 miles on the bike. (My husband bought me an  exercise bike this weekend) He got a good deal on ksl.  

I got on the treadmill today thinking I need to run three miles without stopping. After my first mile I thought I should push myself a little harder so I decided I was going to run it in 30 minutes.  Almost! 30.34 still a pr for me.  Then I kept on running and thought to myself  over and over "that which dose not kill me will only make me stronger"  I think I should make that my new blog title.   So I did it. I ran 4 miles with no walking and I did it in 41:00  another pr for me. I am a little sore but It feels good that I can talk myself through something that is not really that much fun and a little painful.   I keep waiting for the day that I just love running.  

I love sports wake boarding, biking, swimming, fishing, hiking.  I just wish running was as entertaining to me. Although I think the running will at least make me feel more comforatable doing the things I really love.  We have a jet boat and when other people come out with us, I always feel like everything is just bouncing around and flapping in the wind.  (very self consious in a bathing suit) I usually wear a shirt and shorts but that gets in the way when trying to wake board or knee board.  I got my pocket of my shorts caught on the side of the boat once(On the metal things on the front of the boat)  while getting in the water and got fliped around hit my head on the side of the boat and basically got my shorts ripped off.     

So I am hopeing that when boating season comes around I will feel more confident and maybe I will perform better without all my loose fitting long shorts on.   I will also be running outside by then so maybe just maybe I will love that to :)  

O Ya I am talking about my workout! After my treadmill i worked my abs over, and then changed a diaper in record time. Then I rode the bike for 25 minutes because that was all the time I had left.  

I did not sleep well last night! Somehow three kids ended up in my bed and I got pancaked.  I feel stiff and drained today. I made it to the gym and ran .25 and my muscles in legs were just hurting worse so I decided to walk at a fast pace that was still comfortable. I did 2 miles in 30 minutes and then I worked my abs.  I did a few leg weight with lower weight on them to try to strech a little and work the parts of my legs that are not sore. I did a few arm weights and then I rode the bike for 30 minutes.

I am having a hard time with the birth mom of this baby and the grandparents, so my mind was just not in it today. I just could not find my zone.  I got home and there was another message on my phone and now I am so angry I feel like I need to go back to the gym. I could probley run at this point.   

I felt so anxious I decided to try getting on my treadmill. I did another half mile and then decided I should just play with my kids or something.

I thought for a minute today that I was not going to go to the gym, but I made it.   I thought about doing something besides running and then decided I needed to give it my best.  I just felt soooo tired.  I ran the first mile and just made small goals to make it to the 4 mile mark (I finished running at 42:00) and then I ran just a little more to show myself I could.  I feel really good, I just can't get my mind where it belongs now.

I did my crunches and then hit the bike. I only had 20 minutes so my goal was 4 miles.

ran my four miles in 42:00. I am still just talking myself through it the entire time. Worked my abs and did a couple legs weights. Then I rode the bike for 20 minutes.